Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Today marco got stuck outside his house. LOL!! So funny. He got locked out. Wanted to laugh at him but realised it wasnt a good idea. He might just hate me forever. So i showed my concerns and he is really grateful for that. What else was the audi is working alrdy. Been playing and who knows just met er zi. So qiao. He know it was me. How sad. Was found out. Didnt sleep well due to marco's msg. Constantly spamming in. My skills rot like hell. Dismay.Labels: Diary
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at 4:42 AM
Friday, May 29, 2009
Today is Meet the parent session. JJ didnt talk much to mum. Madam Koh did. Was really depressed when i heard the news that she is leaving school. She must be so upset abt students detesting her. But i did not. I know she is a nice teacher. She knows that i treasure her. So.. i decided to study well, to give her the credit. Prove to her she is right abt me. I will miss her for sure. Yanying is regretting abt treating her badly. Cried on the bus home. Went to tampinese to meet up with blogshop ppl. That fella didnt turn up in the end. Waste our time. Went to yanying house. Taught her chinese stuff. The rest is up to her. Can tell she is still lazy. O lvl isnt as easy as it seems. Whatever it may be... im so so so bored. Reluctant.Labels: Diary
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at 8:16 AM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Today felt fufilled in school. Its a great feeling. Zacson found himself a really pretty gf. But until i ask tarot, i will not know. Today went back to playing tarot. Found alot more spells and got the meaning for every single card. Decided to play both major and minor acarna. Want to get devoted with wiccan. Gave a spell to yanying today. Took note of chenyan in school. Seems lonely. Thinks she deserve it. I dont wanna interfere. Its her problem. Actually am i sad? Not exactly? Means the feeling for zacson is just a crush. How good. But im hoping to jam with him once again. With him around is really fun. Did alot of facial excercise today. Hope to look better. Really want to slim my face down. I must take on a diet. Drink more water. Make more self reminder. Life is boring. Felt the pressure of O level. Please goddess, motivate me! Bored.Mundane.Labels: Diary
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at 8:21 AM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
I feel much better now compared to last night after the chaos and heart break. Chat alot with JiaMin Pang today during HCL class. Knew that chen yan isnt likeable in their group. Based on her character, its very much expected. Remind myself not to be like her. I want to upgrade myself to be better, discard my arrogant attitude and learn humbly. Goddess pls help me. After school made a sudden decision to meet up with marco anyway. He is awesome. It came to me that guys that plays music are often more charming with or without instruments around. We spent alot of time at bugis and walk around. Share thoughts are find ourselves having the same interest. He shows a really great attitude. One thing i would like to mention is that he smokes. Although he dont look like ganster to me. He gave me a really good impression but i wonder what impression i gave him. Reach home felt tired and took at nap in the evening. Woke up and found a guitarist called darren and he join our band. Ben did a video of the first jamming session. Kept laughing at the NGs. What happy memories i had with zacson. Tried to put it into my phone but failed.Nvm i will do it tmr by video-ing it done. Dont have any special feelings towards anyone right one. Hope that the crush is over. Crush= immature love. Thats why i hate it. I am looking forward to the next jamming session with the band. Refreshed.Labels: Diary
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at 9:41 AM
First of all, didnt went school today. Do not wish to stay until 5 plus in school. Might as well stay at home. After that was terrible, about the band.Crying. What a day. I know the disagreemnt bwt me and zacson made it akward. Ben suddenly says he is gonna quit band. I was so upset. I knew i couldnt tolerate shawn anymore. He expect everyone to change their scedule to meet his. So.. i sort of show him my unhappiness. WTH. Zacson actually side with shawn. Cant believe it. Whatever. It just made me feel really really bad. In the end ben stayed in the ben, but shawn left( cause i wanted him to). And zacson left for his solo-youtube-star-career. It ended badly. Who is the victim here anyway?... Maybe its not me only... the rest of them as well. One thing for sure. I will miss zacson for sure.He said he was not comforting me... im so dissappointed. Looks like he didnt understand my efforts for him. I swear, pretty girls like me, wont love a man more than he loves me. Thats why im going to cry all out, and maintain the nuetral feelings for him.What a good idea. Cried.Labels: Diary
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at 9:32 AM
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Had a sort of disagreement with zac. Think that maybe im too imature in thinking. Cant say im right. It was the genre of music we prefer. I dont want to sing acoustic all the time. I care alot about zacson. I wonder if he would be the guy that could make me forget about abt irving. Its not like irving would ever rmb what happen alrdy... But im sure zacson dont have special feelings towards me for now. Maybe i should be myself. I think that when im myself, i tend to make guys like me. The guys i like dont exactly like me. Maybe its becos i sub consciously behave diff. So im thinking fo negative things abt zacson right now. It still doesnt rule out the possibility that he may not like me. In any case, i reassure myself that there are more than enough guys that is woo-ing me in time or future. A women shouldnt love a guy more than he loves u. Feel like playing baminton. Hands are aching since the previous game. I cant wait for the band outing. Ben really really have a crush on me. Its not like im gonna do anything. Im only writting it down. Menstruation is hurting me all day. The disadvantage of being a women. Aching.Labels: Diary
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at 9:52 AM
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Had jamming today. Met Benjamin, Shawn, Zacson. Everyone was cool. Ben knows alot of intruments. Milly sis went to play with us for some special reason. She is doing superb. My first jamming experice is great. Marco couldnt make it today. Cheat my feelings. Sang well i suppose, but still needs improvements(alot). Want having lunch with milly sis and zacson. Zacson is a nice guy and i think he is attracting me alot. In any sense, that doesnt mean love. Ben is good. He taught me alot today.Look forward to the next meeting. Ben confessed he likes me. But i dont have any special feeling towards him. Ive got more feeling towards zacson cause we sang duet and we got along really well. Anyway, i need my sleep. Sleepy.Labels: Diary
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